The last 3 years have been a complete tornado- my life has changed in ways I never could have imagined. I’ve experienced a complete dismantling of my personal, professional and financial life, which left me at ground zero- with nowhere to go but up. My breakup with my boyfriend of 4 and a half years left me devastated and lost, realizing that I’d gotten off track with my passion and purpose, giving more to the relationship than I was giving myself. I was forced to confront my deepest shadows and most limiting beliefs- and had countless bender nights that masked my confusion, pain and emotions.
It all led me here- to an awakening. To simply surrender- and finally accept that what has been moved out of my way is not meant for me. To analyze my negative patterns and meet them with solutions, and isolate to quiet all the chatter. Spend my weekends working instead of partying, and save money for experiences that will enrich me- spiritually, professionally and personally. To dial in my discipline, and acknowledge that the only thing standing in my way of my success is me. To commit to another level of health and wellness- and become diligent about my diet, fitness and spiritual practice.
“The most difficult thing in life is to know yourself.” - Thales
Some of the hardest work we will ever do is on ourselves. This era has taught me to go so inward- to forget who society told me to be and choose to be the real me. My daily journal practice has been my best guide- leading me to conclusions and perspectives necessary for healing. Psychedelics have been an imperative tool- to release & confront emotions embedded in my energetic body. Real growth requires real work and drive to go the distance with yourself. It’s much easier to make that commitment when you realize that you only really have you- you are the source of everything in your life.
In saying goodbye to the old me, a new me has emerged. A me that no longer apologizes for doing what is best for me, a me that honors my highest self in every situation, a me that knows that discipline in the strongest form of self-love. I’ve made space for new connections, opportunities and abundance— and now I understand that everything old and stagnant had to clear out before the new could be received.
No one can heal you but you.